Saturday, March 26, 2011

Updating.....78% complete

You know how full moons are supposed to make everyone crazy and certain astrological events have a profound effect on how people do things?  Well, if you're into new agey things like astrology, magnets and The Force and stuff then you might be familiar with that concept, but if you aren't then I'm probably about to sound like a crackpot.  consider yourself warned.

Okay, so in the last few weeks we've had some major planetary events.  One of the most powerful earthquakes in history, a devastating tsunami and then the Super Perigee full moon right afterward.  Now, I'm not saying I'm anywhere near Japan.  In fact, I thought I was probably on the exact opposite side of the world from it until I found this totally radical mapping website and found out the geographic other side of the world from my sofa is freaking NOWHERE in the Indian Ocean southwest of Australia.  Anyway, I'm nowhere near Japan is what I'm saying but I think the significance of all those events one right after the other served to shake up just about everyone on the planet.

As the world seemed to be finding its footing that whole week after the devastation in Japan, the Super Moon waxed to bursting overhead and I'm pretty sure that tipped the scales of the universe toward totally bonkers.

At least that's how it feels for me.  I was a guest on a podcast over at titled "A Fistful of Silver" which carries a NSFW warning and also Not Safe for the Easily Offended which I find oddly flattering and a complete surprise because they told me it was an adult broadcast and I was just speaking freely and I didn't think I was so offensive that I warranted TWO different kinds of warnings.  I didn't even turn on the webcam.  It was fun to be a part of actually.  So, if you aren't at work and have an open mind and also an hour or so go listen and tell me why that event keeps playing in my head on a loop.  Because I can't figure out why.

Another thing that has me thrown for a loop is that I joined the gym last Friday.  I have been there every day except Sunday because my legs were on fire from 96 squat-related exercises but it still doesn't feel real.   I don't even know how to explain the gym thing except that I felt suddenly and overwhelmingly compelled to join.  An irresistible urge.  Which is the definition of compelled if I'm not mistaken (and I'm not because I just looked it up, thanks Google).

I'm trusting it though.  At this point in my life, I feel like I have to trust things like that because how much more time do I have to waste not listening to my intuition?  The more opportunities I squander, the less time I have to enjoy my success when I finally do figure it out.  So I think I should probably just do the right thing now rather than hold myself back any longer.  I think.

I have been wanting a reset button on my life for a while.  Of course I KNOW the universe doesn't give those out.  Well, not without actual death involved and I don't think I'm quite there yet.  But for whatever reason I feel like things got shaken off the shelves internally speaking and I'm reorganizing how they're arranged in my head.  Probably why I haven't been writing here in so long that I feel I hardly qualify as member of the blogosphere these days.  Even though there are a whole host of other things I could and have been blaming it on, it just boils down to me not have my thoughts nailed down in a way that I'm ready to share for a while.

Like this event planning business I mentioned a couple months ago.  I've been dragging my heels on that kinda.  Fits and starts anyway.  And it's driving me nuts.  End of April is when I expect to be fully legit.  I just have to quit talking myself out of it.  I read a quote in Inc. last month that pretty much summed up the mindset I need to keep:
Your competition is a secondary factor.  Analyze whether you think you can be successful or not before you size up your competitors.
Because I don't want to adopt the habit of knocking people down to make myself feel better about my chances.  You know how people do that sometimes?  They look at someone else and say, "What a piece of shit; they should be ashamed of themselves for that attempt." and don't take into account 1. There's always a learning curve and 2. It's pretty easy to sit back and be a critic without getting your hands dirty.  And, y'know,  bitter isn't my best side.  I'll let you know more about the event planning thing as it coagulates.

Having mentioned being critical, I have to admit that I absolutely love Regretsy, the website that snarks about ridiculous crafts on Etsy.  But that's because what Regretsy features is so head cockingly WTF you can't help but rubberneck and giggle yourself stupid.  At least I can't.  so, there's my smidge of hypocrisy for ya.


Always Home and Uncool said...

You have been missed. Now where are the corn chips?

Silver said...

Thanks, Home. Now, corn chips...corn chips...they're around here somewhere. Sofa cushions maybe?